I'm on the verge of being awesome.

Hello, my dear friends.

I think each day I ingest more and more caffeine.....which I understand may be a bad habit to engage in, but I love how vivacious and full of energy it makes me....

Also, my story was "workshopped" today in my advanced writing of fiction class, which means everyone got a copy on Thursday last week, read it over the weekend and prepared comments, goods, bads, stupids, etc. about my story. I was delighted to see that my teacher, Mr. Farmer, said, "you write extremely well"- I could have jumped out of my seat. He liked my descriptions and images- "very poetic"........yesssss!!!!!!

I'm giving a lesson on watercolor today- which is funny because i don't paint......let's say, I'm not an experienced artist. We'll see how it goes....should be very interesting.

I'm having a very good day. Yesterday was more than productive...and I really needed that. I worked my butt off and felt great when I went to bed- having completed everything I set out to do for the day.

Additionally, I received a comment from a classmate, James, "if this is ever made into a screenplay, I think Hinder's Lips of an Angel and Stevie Wonder's I Just Called to Say I Love You should be on the soundtrack". HA! that's great......this is so fun.

Is it just me? Or has this got to be the one we came to see.....

Today I am straight-up gangsta' and here are the pictures to prove it:



That's right. I'm super-tough.

Also, I hate school. I'm stressed, irritable, sick of stupid people, tired of busy work, and ready to MOVE ON.......spring break can't come soon enough.

Additionally, I'm not crazy. I think sometimes people can tell us that certain things are wrong with us and then we start to believe them more than before- or we begin overanalyzing everything. Stupid. I won't do it. It's much easier to simply be happy....and that is what I choose to do.

Kind of like Girl Scout Cookies

It's become increasingly colder in the past 20 hours- it was so nice to have such beautiful weather. Spring inspires me to do great things, as do rain storms, which I CANNOT wait for. I should move somewhere where it rains often- but then it may not be as special. Kind of like Girl Scout Cookies- they're amazing and everyone loves them because they're special, somethinhg to treasure. My good friend once told me that....

I love Fridays. I love Fridays because I have no classes to attend and have a sense of releif as I work on homework but know nothing is due until Tuesday- my Monday class is a joke, so it doesn't even really count. Although, it should be one of my easiest grades, and I've gotten a series of less-than-acceptable marks for assignments that were completed incorrectly....which is entirely my fault, since I failed to follow directions. I'm ready to be done with school!!!!

So today, I'll have tea and sit in comfortable clothes and work through assignments until I have to get ready for work later this afternoon.

Today is looking good.

Here is a quotation my friend, Scottie, had on his blog, or maybe an e-mail....I like it.

"Men occasionally stumble over the truth but most of them pick themselves up and hurry off as if nothing ever happened"

I need to be reminded of who I was

Hey. This week! (insert flailing arms and a dramatic back-of-the-hand-to-the-forhead gesture)
I'm worn out. I'm tired. I'm exhausted. Emotionally. Drained. Physically. Weary.

...

And very hopeful.

This is very good.

I'm growing.

I'm learning about myself.

And I'm encouraged.

Your kindness is what pulls me up

Had coffee with Renae today- which was so great. It's been fun reconnecting with lots of great girlfriends that I haven't seen for a long time.

Tomorow is Mat Kearney and John Mayer at the Quest. I'm going with Rissa, Amber and Aaron, Levi and Johnny. Last year, we went to Coldplay there and it was the most amazing concert I've ever been to. Partly because of the group of people that went with us....and partly because Coldplay is amazing.

Work was fine tonight. I have yet to dread my job....or even drag my feet going in the door. I love it. I love the people and I love the books. The customers are ususally pretty great. :) Usually.

i was lifted by the angel to never be alone

Today I am content. Very. Things are turning around completely and I feel great. I still have a mother load of homework- which boggles me a bit, but somehow when priorities are straightened, life seems a little less hectic. I love it.

I'm also taking some time to be alone. I'm not spending as much time with people. Large groups- hardly ever. I really feel like this is a good time in my life to think and spend a lot of time silent....writing, reading, and just listening. So far, I'm loving it. This is important....and I'm learning much about myself....which is a lot of fun....and pretty scary at the same time!

The new Bebo cd- might not be so new, but it's great. I play #5 again and again and again....

My calendar for this month reads: "He went up on a mountainside by himself to pray" Matthew 14:23
I hadn't noticed that until just now. How appropriate.

I love. Thanks for the prayers.

-Heather Lea

As I fall down to my knees, let the ocean rise to meet me.

Yesterday was eventful- I visited with some people that I have needed to talk to for months. Those conversations always seem to turn out a lot better than I expect. We're moving forward, which is very good.

Valentine's day was good. I'm not one of those people that thinks "valentine's day SUCKS if you're single".....it's just another day to love people a little extra. I like it.

I'm off to grab coffee before class.
Be kind to yourselves today.

Happy Valentine's Day!

I've been so encouraged by many of you. It's good to be reminded of these things and I appreciate your support more than you know.

I'm off to sell books. Love someone a little extra today......

Love throws your heart to the ground

Today was good. I went to bed last night from a stressful, but productive day. I woke up with my assignments all finished, printed off and ready to turn in. None of that last-minute crap. And tonight, I've been getting quite a bit done, even though I haven't been home long.

I'm beginning to love my fiction class more and more. I've been working on a piece and it gets workshopped two weeks from today. I'm excited to get some feedback so I can get a few fresh ideas from my classmates and teacher.

Off to read. Be kind to yourselves.

A gloomy day

I've come to a place. I'm frustrated with myself and no matter how hard I try to get away, I'm always still there.

I'm working through some tough things now that I don't want to blog about. Mostly because keeping them in the "closet", if you will, means that no one knows and I can't be put in a vulnerable position. I do need to work through them, however. But bringing them out will hurt many people that I love very much and I'm trying to choose a very safe place to confide. This scares me and makes me feel very ill.

So.

That's all for today.

I've been scolded...

It's been too long, and I apologize.

I've just come home from a sleepover with some girlfriends from high school. We always seem to have a rather good time....and now, I'm home for the day working on the crap-load of homework that I have.

And quite honestly, double blogging isn't the drag-down....because I'm not blogging there either. I must have had a strange week.

-H

tacos

I'm thinking about making taco meat one of my staple foods. There's nothing like it. So flavorful, so versitile, so inexpensive and available.....I love it.

My friend, Jay, made my day. The things people say.....the impact is amazing.

Speaking of Jay, when is Ben moving?

I must go.

A Visit from a Friend

My dearest friend, Rissa, is coming to visit today. We've gone to school since Kindergarten together. I've rented "Little Miss Sunshine" to curl up to tonight in pj's and hot tea...she's the type of friend that is great to just "be" with. We don't need extravagant plans or fancy restaurants. We'll laugh for hours just reminiscing of past years....it's so great.

I'm starting a new book today. It's our February book for the book group I'm in, "The History of Love" by Nicole Krauss. One thing I really enjoy about our group is that every month our book has a theme appropriate to that month's holidays. This month, February, is the month of love, so we're reading a book about love. September = "Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close- Johnathan Safran Foer, book about 9/11, October = "Wicked"- Johnathan Gregory, the wicked witch of the west, halloween....you get the idea.

The tea kettle is on, I've changed into comfy clothes, and I'm ready to start my new book! Have a wonderful day, my friend.

No clever title

I'm finding myself in a strange sort of mood today...a bit more cynical than usual. Perhaps this can be attributed to the fact that I sound like a sick walrus and probably look only slightly better.

I continue to feel "behind" in my schoolwork...I'm in a sped class that takes an exceptionally large amount of time and effort. I'm tutoring and lesson plans are due every other day in addition to assessments, new projects and games, reading materials, etc. I'll stop complaining.

I do need to get going. I'll be back in a few hours....